i still scream for your name every night in my sleep
and my arms will stretched out for you.
dreaming of you is like
my sweetest nightmare.

SYARIFAH AZRINATUL NURULHANNA is BEST UNIT CADET, female la siooooooooooooooooooool!
hanna ftw uh! ;D

and the first word that came out from my mouth when they announced it was.
"siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal!"
hahaha!
kekek uhhh.
me?
best unit cadet?
are you kidding me or whaaaaaaaaaat? ;D

i got this plaque.
and a badge.
im going to take a picture of these babies.
because i cant help but gawk at them every single moment i have a chance to. ;D
its unbelievable.
me?
from a no nothing no confident know answer just keep quiet girl to best unit cadet to can train one-on-ones without losing my temper and lead?
haha,and all those i thought it was impossible when i was a cadet. ;D

wahh,nak step impossible is nothing uh pat sini! xD

schedule has been tight these few days.
i can hardly have time to breathe!
and i have a lot to catch up on because i was on MC for four days last weeeek.
wasted wasted! D:

hidup macam hectic gila nak mampos.
tapi tak mamposmampos lagi.
entah bilerrr la nak stop ini benda semuaaa.
penat la sehhhh. D:

prelims is like just around the corner.
playing BOOO-CHAKKKKKK with me ;D
and im trying real real hurd to mugmug like a fugging retard! D:
but the only thing i realise im mugging is, mathematics.
wahhhh, bole caye ke ni? ;D
and mathematics mock just now was do-able. ;D
at least i can do what i used to cannot do.
abe, vectors ngan circle properties semua hanna leave blank!
wahhh, how pass like that? ;D

ohhhhhhh! and my holiday essay assignment.
the one i did on Promises.
i totally PINNED IT! ;D
even Mdm Zainah loves it because its one of those nice essays.
ONE OF THOSE because im not the only one
who write very good essays.
i pwned it, 20/30! ;D
i loooooooove english. <3

life is like food when you cook.
add spice to make it taste nice. ;D
and my spices are non other thannnn.
Sofiaaa, Sherraaaa and Keandraaaa.
andandand.
Nadhiraaaaah, Nadhilaaaaah and Azlin. ;D
haha, i love having great friends like awesome people i have to make me laugh.
like my class, 4D. ;D
oh,not to mention, umarrudin who always asks about my day every single day.
withoutfail.
he's like ever so strangely concern. ;D
thnks,dudeeee!
hehhhh!

till whenever i raaaaant.
byeeeee!




i remember those times.
when i fall, you had my back.
and when im all stressed, tensed up
that i thought it was the end and all i could think of is giving up.
i remember you would be there to be my strength and shelter.
my source of protection.
because you make my life worth living for.
you will pull me back up to my feet again.
and slowly revive me back.
and you would always be one of the reason when i rejoice after every failure.
but, ever since you're gone.
every since you went away like you never existed in my life, i struggled badly.
i have a really hard time to rejoice every time i fail.
because you werent there anymore to pull me back up.
and constantly telling me to not give up.
you were no longer part of my strength.
and i miss that in me.
i miss you in me.
and i wonder, if every now and then.
someone would think of me and ask.
"i wonder how is she doing right now"
because i always do.
i miss someone,telling me that i can do it.
i miss having heart to heart talk with someone.
i miss just simply talking to him,but i know.
we can never be as close as how we were last time.

for old time sake,please?